I’ve talked a little here about how I am working on giving up caffeine. As of now, I’m stuck at one cup of green tea a day. At some point I’ll get around to cutting it all, but for now I feel good about this accomplishment. It represents an 85% decrease in my daily caffeine consumption! I still occasionally get afternoon headaches, (especially on a day following days when I compensated with soda in the afternoon too much) but symptoms are mild. I’ve really noticed improvements in how I feel when I get up in the morning. I don’t feel as zombie-fied. I can walk in straight lines and have been able to walk to work regularly again. I have less of a morning lull at work as am waiting for the ‘juice’ to kick in.
Yesterday I decided to treat myself to a drink with a shot of espresso, a “dirty chai.” I had some Starbucks gift card cash to spend. It’s crazy how euphoric I felt afterwards. This was the feeling that addicted me to coffee in the first place, I think. After the drink I was literally sitting at my desk, beaming from ear to ear, and unable to really do anything because I just felt so elated. I commiserated with a fellow grad student about this who also recently gave up coffee. I laughed when he said, “You feel happier than one should be allowed to feel.” Amen.
I remember feeling like this other times when I first started drinking coffee my senior year of college. At one point I accidentally drank too much and remember being in a chair in a computer lab at Penn unable to concentrate on anything. It felt like I was in slow motion while the world was speeding past me. Eventually, the feeling left and I just felt sick and anxious.
It’s times like these where I realize….caffeine is a drug and probably best used in moderation. I guess I’m glad that now I can use it to RALLY in times of emergency or as a special treat like I did yesterday. I’m going to try not to get too caught up in the caffeine euphoria thing again. If you chase that feeling you end up needing some kind of ungodly heart palpitation inducing amount of the substance every day. And people sane enough not to do that end up like I was and just needing their ___ ounces every day not to feel miserable. Coffee, I secretly love you, but you’re kind of a bitch.
So here I stand, trying to keep on fighting the good fight and sticking with tea and dreaming of total independence. (And also dreaming of coffee euphoria….just keeping it real)
In other news, my friend and I talked today about starting a science blog. I’m excited! I love blogging (obvi). It’s cool to think about doing it in a more professional way as well. I’ve been on the lookout for ways to turn my passions into something that can generate an income. I can’t help but thinking of how I could totally have turned this caffeine experiment into something science blog-y!